It is late and I am having trouble falling asleep so I thought I would approach my new found friend, Mr. Blog. I love the way he now has some of you talking to each other. Feel free to use the comment fields to exchange information or even to ask questions of each other. I have discovered that a blog is a number of things all bundled together. Obviously, it's a journal, an effective way to disseminate information, an opportunity to be mildly voyeuristic as well as exhibitionistic, a place to garner insight into the thoughts and actions of others, a home place, somewhere decisions may or maynot be made, a place to be alone with a lot of others near, a community. I really like the community aspect of it. One can dart in and out as desired or simply sit on the sidelines and observe. You can be you or anonymous. I can be happy, sad or jealous (as I am that Cat's blog is so much prettier than mine). So I decided that I will work on creating my uniqueness through imagery of words. Which brings me to my first point. I decided today there are three ways to approach my current condition, which is now formerly pancreatic cancer. 1)I can give in to it and let it run its course on my body, 2)I can seek the best choice of medical help and follow their instuctions to the letter and hope for the best, or 3) I can seek the best choice of medical help that I feel compatible with and along side them serve as my own advocate in seeking out new ideas and bringing them to the table for discussion. I have chosen door #3. Door #1 reeks of Mr. Smith's thoughts on inevitability on the original "Matrix". Door # 2 is not bad but seems to be an older medical model that weights the benefit of newer accepted technologies to the newly diagnosed. It is getting late for me so recognize this particular post is a wee bit self indulgent. Door #3 allows for strong medical advice and input, always keeping an eye out for the newly conceived and for something I strongly believe in .......LUCK. It is an important part of life that is most beneficial when you are activly participating in the game of life.

Finally, I think I will have a link to my short story this week. It is a sweet little story that I wrote in the 1999-2000 time frame. I completed about 90% of it back then. The balance was completed before the surgery.

This will be the rare post as I was kept awake by some rare thoughts.