A time to forgive and forget

These last few weeks reprieve from chemo has been a real blessing. Cathy asked me if I ever forgot that I had cancer. I told her I never forget I just don't think about it sometimes. I have really gotten to not think about it more lately. A well earned respite. Two more days and then I am back to the drawing board. Monday I am privileged to get radiated and pumped up. I will get my first radiation treatment that will go every Mon-Fri for 5-6 weeks and will have a bag and a pump attached to me that will flow with 5-FU (How appropriate those initials are). I guess the chemo keeps the radiation going. I will be illuminating for weeks. If any of you would like to reserve your own personal nite lite just give me a call. It is amazing what technology has made possible over the years. Now they can actually control where the radiation starts and stops. It used to be that if the pancreas was radiated the rays would go right on through to the liver. Now they can control this so the aftermath is not so devastating. Before it was often like a nuclear bomb went off inside of people.

Monday night is also Erev Rosh Hashonah. That is the first night of the Jewish New Year. So Happy New Year everyone. It is significant to me that my radiation starts on the New Year. I am getting blasted clean for a good and sweet year. That comes from my mouth to God's ears. The best part is what happens 8 days later. Yom Kippur, the day of atonement, when I get to ask all for forgiveness for my wrong doings and at the same time grant forgiveness to those who have wronged me in some way. This includes the big guy himself but more importantly it is directed to us mere mortals. I look at the concept of forgiveness a lot differently lately. It really is a powerful tool. I found when I review what has made me angry at times or more importantly who has made me angry and I truly choose to forgive, the anger begins to subside and now the opportunity for that person to reenter my life is again available. It becomes somewhat painfully apparent that it really is easier to forgive than forget. These "high holy day musings" have been brought to you by "Dr. Wiggers' Goodtime Radiation". Guaranteed to light you up inside and out. I am a true believer cuz I will be visiting the good doc on Monday.